Friday, February 26, 2010

The Trouble With Love is...

The trouble with LOVE is

It can TEAR you up inside

Make your heart believe a LIE

It's STRONGER than your PRIDE

The trouble with LOVE is

It doesn't care how FAST you FALL

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all


Love. Such an infamous word, known to all living men in different comprehensions. Suddenly thought of this verse of that much too familiar song while I was searching and downloading songs.

Just EIGHT lines, and it highlights the significance of the implications of LOVE. Each of the lines bring an entirely different meaning, with a different story attached altogether, but what attracted me most is the second line.
"It can tear you up inside."

Emotional downfall is the the hardest fall one can take. As I write this, I’m thinking of the thousands and millions of people out there, tormented by a LOVE they once knew, a LOVE that didn’t work out the way they had hoped for. All the sweetness in the memories turn stone-cold bitter, and they are left with nothing but sorrowful memories to last them a very long time.


My question is, if LOVE does hurt so bad, then why do people keep searching for it?? Why is it a form of addiction, a necessity??? Why does its existence preceed us??? Well, that is because it is simply infectious, and there are of course, the ample good sides of it. But that, is another story.

Allow me to tale a blog of a dear friend, a blog that stories some of the bitterness he had to endure after years of loving that one perfect girl. Perhaps, breaking up with her was a mistake, but it was to late for him to do anything now, just like some of us. Then, at times when memories come rushing back, regret overpowers, and one is left to rot and die in pain. Figuratively.
Quoted from him (where he quoted from another friend), it takes half of the duration of the relationship to get over someone. Well, the few years, the period of recovery is substantial. But can anyone guarantee that after that duration, one can fully recover and truly move on to find another??? NO. So why LOVE again??? Clearly, at this point now, the cost outweights the benefits by a great deal. Even the most heavenly memories turn into the scariest nightmares. And the worst part is, it plays like a broken record, unable to stop even if the heart yearns to. So why LOVE???


Years of happy memories, and then it comes to an end. Then what happens next??? Take a few breaths, let it go, and move on?? If it was only THAT easy. Reality check, it isn’t. Even a few months of a relationship can hurt so bad, what more years??? Recall the movie, Moulin Rouge??? A LOVE found, cherished, overwhelmed with tedious challenges of the Duke and his obsession on the same beautiful lady, Satine, eventually LOVE prevails, but the Satine dies in the end, and the writer, Christian is left to rot in bitterness in the empty world he lived in then adt her demise??? What’s the worth in that??? Should Christian be considered lucky, that he has found LOVE, although it didn’t last, or should he be considered unlucky, to have the person he LOVE die in his arms, and have those short but wonderful memories to cherish??? Is it really, wonderful, really, at that point??? If it is, why is he filled with gushes of tears???

It is once told that “It is better to have known how to LOVE, and be loved in return, rather than to not LOVE at all.” I guess some speak of the contrary. If LOVE had to feel so bad, some would rather live in emptiness. But then again, the grass is greener on the other side, eh? For some of us, the pain gradually goes away. We become stronger and move on. But for another some, the pain is just kept in one corner, and it comes back now and then to haunt. And it hurts everytime. At one time, no one ever really moves on, truly.



That’s the thing about us humans. We fall so easily, and make some very risky decisions, thinking that at the beginning, it is the right choice, and then the substance of that choice is further strengthened by the ample sweet memories created, but not thinking for the worst, should the relationship end badly.

And when things go bad, it takes longer than FOREVER to recover. Well, at least for some of the few billions of us.



But hey, this is just LOVE from ONE perspective.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Random: Personality Test

I was actually thinking of posting something else for this post, but I just did this personality test on Facebook, which is quite close to ME. =D So better leave this note here before it gets overlapped. Perhaps it would do some good in reminding me of the person that I am some time in the future, you know, just in case if I loose my way and no one's around to bring me back on track..

Dear Jean Chong, below are your Personality Tests result:

Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Your view on yourself:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are down-to-earth
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : People like you because you are so straightforward
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are a true romantic
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : When you are in love
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will do anything
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Everything to keep your love true

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship

The seriousness of your love:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are very serious about relationships
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : If you meet the right person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You will fall deeply
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Beautifully in love

Your views on education:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Education is very important in life
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You want to study hard
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Learn as much as you can

The right job for you:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You're a practical person
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Will choose a secure job with a steady income
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Knowing what you like to do is important
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Find a regular job doing just that
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You'll be set for life

How do you view success:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are afraid of failure
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous

What are you most afraid of:
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : You are concerned about your image
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : The way others see you
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : It's time for you to believe in who you are
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : Not what you wear

Monday, February 22, 2010

Sighs...

I think there is an invisible thread connecting me with magnets of danger all around recently...

Just two days ago I was taking some water from this public water dispenser thinking that the water was cold. Mana tau its actually hot water. Not just hot water, but boiling hot water!!! I think the temperature for that darn machine went haywire already coz its waaay to hot... like burning, boiling point of 100 degrees !!! U know how I know??? Coz two days later, there is still a beaming red mark across my right wrist ah. Like right now! And I know I should put an alkaline right away, like Colgate, but damn, how am I supposed to find one in the middle of nowhere??? Sigh...

And then I hit my leg somewhere and got a blue black just right above my feet...

Cut my hand while slicing some vegetables...

In addition, I hit my head while coming out of the car today...

And to top it off, I've suffering from this stupid flu that I have no idea where in the world I infected from. Been feeling dizzy wizzy all day..! And that, is without any paracetamol, antibiotic, or sleepy liquid from or tablet medicines, mind you.



...Tell me la, is this just me being an extreme klutz or what>>>???

Maybe I'm just "a magnet for accidents"-quote from Twilight.

Sigh... Hope I can switch my positive magnet to negative soon! Push it all away!!! Grrrr....


Friday, February 19, 2010

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

FAME Favz



My favourite from the latest re-make of Fame. It's pretty good, and the song suites. The first person that came to mind wuz Nelly Furtado. Did she sing the song? No idea. But check it out.

This is the final performance. A combination of talents.



... Sometimes I envy these people, who chose to pursue careers in something they're passionate about. I envy the fact that they are able to pursue their dreams, and there are recognized places they could go to materialize it.

... At one point of my life, I would have done that. I had the choice. Dancing has always been my passion. I would have been good in what I did. Probably really good. Both sis and I would have. Heck, we were once the national best cheerleaders right??? That was only cheer. Ballet was our forte, really. =) (lol yea I know I'm blowing my own trumpet, but who cares??? It's the truth. We have track records to prove it. *grins*)

... Sometimes I wonder what life would have been if I took the road less taken. Or rather, not taken. Both sis and I wonder. Guess we all do sometimes.

Guess that's the opportunity cost of life, isn't it???

Back to the video, well overall the movie is alright. But will it leave the same effect as it did in the 1980's, as what the original FAME movie did back then?? Would any of the casts prevail in the same fashion as the stars back then did??? Probably not. But its worth checking out anyways. =)

Sunday, February 7, 2010

New Look Frenzy!!!

With Chinese New Year beaming around the corner, everyone in the family is getting a new perspective in their looks, I mean literally!! Haha. Mom went to colour her hair red (I sooo preferred black, but what can I say, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder =D), sis went to get a fringe (and she looks younger now) and I did my share too. Of course, with all the excitement, I can't possibly miss one very-important-entity to me from the frenzy right???? So just today, ColB got a haircut!!!! He looks soooooooooo cute now!!! Like freaking young all, compared to his old 'Uncle' look. Haha. I reminded myself that he has to have a haircut before he turns into 'Grandpapa' soon!!! So I'll let your eyes do you justice.

Here's the picture before:



And here it is after!!!





Isn't he the cutest thing???? Haha... Now you believe when people say a shorter haircut makes one look younger??? Here's the living testimony!!! *grin grin*

I've always mentioned about Little ColB, that I rarely mentioned on Rocky right??? Rocky's my other dog. He's like ColB's grandfather! Waaay his senior. Love him just as much. He's the more sport-like one, always excited when its time for his evening walk. ColB, on the contrary, is more like the 'Prince in the castle'. Dislikes walking. Loves to be carried around. Even to the park. (Man, what's up with the metaphoric comparability today? Running out of vocabulary I guess. Or brain-tied, either way)*snorts*Urgh... Can't stand it though when ColB gets a little to mischievous, always going around craving for attention like he has not gotten any. The fact is, everyone at home adores that lil fella!!! That's what cranks me up sometimes.

Here's Rocky in the car. Brought him to the vet earlier this week. I always thought of him as a lion-looking-guardian. He is a real good dog, always looking out for me even as I take him for brisk evening walks.




*Rocky wondering the world beyond the glass window*


By the way, I love this Sari. What do u think????


And did I mention I got a new haircut too???


(Aikz... I hope I don't look like a lala. Only God knows the depth of my anti-lala-ness!!!)


*Cheers*



Lotsa love.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Startled.

It was a terrible news. Yesterday daddy informed me of a passing of a dear cobbler. He was a cobbler my whole family knew for a very long time now, stationed just a few shops away from dad's. Every time as I passed him, I would never miss the chance to say "hello Pak Cik!!!" in the most uplifting voice. He would always greet me back. At times we would exchange short conversations. He was a nice, friendly, good man, thick in his state's "pelat'"or rather, accent.

Yesterday I was wearing the sandals that I last brought to him to sew. I always admired his sewing skills. It was neat, firm and lasting. That was the very last sandals I brought to him to fix.

I remembered the last time, as I sat while waiting for him to finish my shoe. I marveled at his skills of his sewing. I don't know whether he charges expensive or not, but I faithfully go to him every time. That time, we had a conversation about his family. And where he lived. I vividly remember he saying it was near college. And he had a few kids, and one goes to a college nearby. I was astounded when he told me of his age, because he looked incredibly young (and fit) for such an age. There were other small talks about stuffs related to him too, like was it lethargic to travel a distance, etc. Never knew that was the last time. And it felt like so long ago. It's sad that the memories are vague.

And suddenly, this happens, I'm suddenly reminded that Life is short. The candle can die off at any moment. Just a snap, and 'The calling' comes, with no alarm, no rhyme, nor reason.

From now on, I will keep in mind to take every meaningful conversation to heart. Even if it's as insignificant, or small, like the conversation I had with Pak Cik. It's sad that I never even knew his name. He was a good, faithful old Cobbler.

Hope he rests in peace.

Monday, February 1, 2010

Black and Gold





Doesn't this leave you with wanting more??????

Coz it left me craving for more!!!!!

That's Keone Madrid's choreography. To the song Black and Gold.

Currently in dance class, we are dancing to this song too. That's why I dare to say that this song is a difficult one to dance to. Hear the beats..! U need strong moves to pull this off. And a whole load of energy plus precise technicalities!!!!!

I'm amazed...

Suddenly Keone's my idol!!!!!

..Super hawtness!!!!..

*droolz*

... Serene ...

...Serene....

...Peaceful....


... It's nice to have the whole place to myself...

... All I need, was just the recliner chair, good light, cool breeze, storybook...

>>> And a whole stretch of imagination <<<

I didn't have to care about the time, nor what I needed to do next. I just sat there, reading that storybook. Engrossed by every detail of it, allowing my thoughts and descriptions reach far beyond to the unknown.

I didn't care less what ever was happening pass that recliner. All I cared about was what lied page after page of that book. The intensity; anxiety; blood rush.

I saw the clock. 3.30am.

Took a glass, poured it with red wine. Got back to the recliner. And continued reading, whilst taking sips of that sinful redness. With constant breeze. I was contented.

It felt so relaxing. I didn't have to care about striking any conversation with anyone, nor did I have to please anyone. It was just a time committed to myself.

I didn't need havoc or loud music, nor loud places of chatter. Not even people. At least, for that moment.

...That moment, just plain. Simple. Was my ideal moment of holiday...


And I was savouring every moment of it...


Can't Smile Without You!!!