I Thought We Could Have....

We could have been wonderful
The world was ours to own
The emotions were genuine; to have and to hold
Worries were far away
Nothing else mattered
Just You and Me...


We could have sailed the Seven Seas
Left footprints along the sandy beach
It didn't matter what tomorrow bring
Because we were entwined
In our hearts and minds
There was You and Me...


Smiles carved upon our faces
We couldn't care less either rags or riches
For within the gazes we were certain
That with each other's presence
In our humble perfect little world
It was complete
As long as there was You and Me...


The calendar showed mid-October
But it didn't matter which year
Because time just halted, and so did the world
Wrapped in the arms of that one person
With the sunset in the horizon
There was just You and Me...


The reflection glistened upon the azure blue sea
The life we both led; it was a simple beauty
We couldn't ask for more
In those tender moments
We knew what we were living for
We were sincere
We were in love...


We could have been wonderful
We could have loved until the sun rose and sets repeatitively
Until the end of time
Because even time itself had no measurements

We could have had everything..



We had everything..


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We could have lasted...
We could have...


But why didn't we???






(..and no, I'm not in depression. Just impulsive writing out of inspiration)




Lotsa love.

TNAR NART RATN... RANT

I'm bored.

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Guess what's going on in my mind right now????????

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I'm bored...

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I think my brain is dead. I can't decipher anything. Its like my brain is gradually slowing down.

Till it comes to a stop.

Right now theres about 40% of brain power left.

*utter boredom*

I'm blogging from office. =) Yeap yeap, I'm a bad employee. *bites* But wait, I AM NOT a bad employee..! I finished all my work and now I'm rotting here aimlessly...

Cha says getting paid whilst not doing anything is fun. He says "I wish I have the time in my life to be aimlessly bored like you."

What a blatant tease!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(thanks a LOT Cha)

Well, guess what???

Let's switch places...!!! Please!

Brain speaks: "Go Google up something la!!!"

..the thing is, I have been googling so much till I don't have anything left to google anymore.

(bullshit) Knowledge is so vast, it's never ending!!!

...But my brain is...

...this is one ridiculous post...

...see how damaged is my brain now????

I'm going nuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let's toast to the kids passing all their exams, Good Health and Happiness!!!!!!!!!

So Sunday was a random family outing. Well, not so random actually. We had planned on visiting Uncle Cheng's coz he had been insisting on us being his guest since he shifted. =) Uncle Cheng is a fine old man, a retired lawyer, and a very close friend of dad's. I'm very grateful that he is around because he accompanies dad at the shop and chit-chats with him in the mornings and sometimes in the evenings too, you know, which keeps him outa boredom during those times when neither of us were there.

So he sold his bungalow near my house and now his new place is at Taman Puchong Permai. Hrm, not a place I would want to live in, really (coz there is just waaaay too many Malays. Hey, I'm not discriminating, its just...... Can I just say birds of the same feather flock together??? Haha.) I didn't take any pics la, coz hello???? It's not house warming or a showcase right??? I'd hate to be rude..! This girl knows her manners. =)

Then Uncle Cheng invited us to be his guest for dinner at IOI Mall. Man, I haven't been to IOI in years! Probably a decade. In exact, 12 years!!!!!!!!! The last time I went to the place, I was Thumbelina!!! A ballet performance I did. It's nice to feel like a star once in awhile. *winks* Ahhh, the fondness of childhood... *dream dreamz*

So being in the presence of a traditional Chinese man, we settled for this seafood restaurant called.....

(that's dad and Uncle on the right. ^^)

Of course lah, a pretty established restaurant like this had to have some standard in their food quality. So the food, I rate probably 7.7/10. There were lamb, crabs, fish, vegetable,and porky!!! I adore the greens, coz its super tasty!! And the fish too. Skills; cooked to perfection. Well, can't help it, I'm a green girl. =)

Here's some snapshots!!!!!!










And the yum yum foods!!!

(pork)

(lamb)

(bamboo fish)

And the bill came up to....




So it was a pretty lavish meal. =) Under the courtesy of Uncle Cheng. =)

But we enjoyed each others company as always. Cracking jokes here and there. Lolz. Laugh laugh away!!! *grins*

Next stop, Fatty Crab!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha...

Just love my family to bits. ^^



Lotsa love.

Can I Have This Dance???

Perhaps a part of me has given up in everlasting Love, but sometimes, being a typical girl , I just can't help the impulsive squeals when there's a romantic scene on TV. And one of those which ranks the top in my list is definitely HSM 3.

Yeap, that was what I watched this early noon to kill the time. =) While scrolling through the limited amount of DVDs I have, I saw the title and right away, slipped it through the DVD player. And yeap, call me childish but I am one of the strong advocates of Disney movies. =)
HSM included.

Hands down, HSM 3 is the best of all the HSM movies!!! And being said, it is all thanks to ZAC EFRON that stretched his charm through the recorder's lenses to the TV screens for our viewing. And yeap yeap, I really really think that Zac Efron (Troy Bolton) is a very handsome hunk!!!! His tantalizing blue eyes just melts my soul. How lucky Gabriella Montez (Vanessa Hudgens) is to have his heart.

And it is because his love for Gabriella transcends through his eyes in the way he looks at her, and the way he holds her, and how he orients himself around her that makes me swoon over. Just look at the way he looks at Gabriella. I doubt anyone would ever look at me like that ever again. It's a look that only comes out from Love and longing, and that is what I see in his eyes every time he lays his eyes on her. Guess that's why I have this thing in men, that the first thing I'll see about them, is the eyes. =)

We all know that they are both the still-standing-and-hopefully-for-a-long-time-more Hollywood couple. It's so clever or the producers and script-writers to manipulate the story around their true-to-life feelings and relate it to the movie that makes it simply different. Unforgettable, really. Like this video....

Ahhh! * *squeals* *
..That's where they shared their first kiss (in the movie la).. Under the shabby tree..

...and their first dance...



Did I mention I love all Gabriella's dresses in this movie???? hehehe...

Guess its Love huh???

And this is Nice. *wink wink*

Maligayang Batii!!!

You know why birthdays with family are like no other?????

Because family knows you best, laughs at the same jokes, and does all those crazy unimaginable stuffs with you that you don't dream of doing with anyone else. They are the people that knows you best, you can count on and would probably be the people that won't turn their back on you when the rest of the world does. They get on your nerves sometimes, but it is the outcome of utmost care and unrequited love. And that is why Birthdays are never missed, and celebrated, even in the tiniest ways. Even if it just means cracking open champagne, or that 12 year old fine liquor.


April 18th was mom's Birthday. And of course, combined with it being family, it was a MUST to go out. We went to my favourite restaurant, D'Fortune. The best is at Kepong, so we drove there. Of course, our efforts were no vain because the food is always as sumptuous as it can ever be, satisfying down to the core, and the ambiance is just, incomparable. Perhaps its because I like the setting just the way it is, not too posh, and had the right amount of everything.

So here's the pics. (Sorry yea, pics didn't turn out so good. Camera didn't love me that day. *sulks*)

(My dish)

Went to MV to buy mom's gift. (Well, Sis and I were too busy working during weekdays). And its kinda difficult to get mom something when she's already got everything she wants. (Ugh...) So settled for a Valentino Rossi bag from Robinsons.

...And met up with some friends for awhile before returning back to my family. Oh ya! Fatin (from Seattle) and her mom (from the East Coast) came down especially to spend some time with mom and wish her a very Happy Birthday! What a heartfelt surprise! Coz it's the effort that truly matters.

*Happy Birthday Mummy*

~This day is to celebrate YOU, the wonderful person you have become, a loving wife, a caring and ever-giving mother, and an unmistakable fashionista!!!Love u lots mummy... Stay beautiful always...*huggies*~

The thing about THAT is...

Charan: What is the one thing that can make or break a marriage???

Jean: Fildelity??

Cha: Nope.

Jon: Faith??

Cha: Nope.

Jean: Loyalty la.

Cha. (Shakes his head)

Jon: Sex

Cha: That's second most important after the first.

Jon: What is it??

Cha: Guess la..

Jean: Tolerance.

Cha: It's something tangible.

Jon: Christianity???

(Cha looks at John unbelievably).

Jon: SEX

(Cha scowls)

Jean: What ah...????

Jon: Hrm Hrm... *ponders*

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Jean: Ah, I know!!!! MONEY!!!!!

Cha: Exactly! Money is the thing that makes or breaks marriages!!! *Huh, finally*

Yes, we all know it, Money makes the world go round. With it, everything seems possible, and without it, one can only wish for that something to happen. It is the drivers for success, and the main motives why we are all bundled upon the lifestyles of materialism and forget humanity at times. Sadly, its true. Yes, it's all because of Money.

So, in what circumstance does Money relate itself to Love??? Well, in almost every way! You need money for almost everything, from those casual dates, or and during those Anniversary or Christmas dates up to the special and sometimes exquisite gifts that you want to get for that very special someone. And then as you move further along the line, marriage comes into the picture and well, you can picture it from there. (Ehy, even a budget wedding also costs up to approximately 10K okay!)

So let's just say, Lady A, she finds herself a soul mate, falls in love with him impeccably and ends up being his wife. Now Mr. A is a fine young lad, who strove from rags to riches, and has fallen in love with her too just as much. He builds a life with her and starts a family of three kids. Lots of love was in the air. He was as good a father and a husband, showering his family and wife a tremendous amount of attention, Love, and is always there for them during times of need. He was everything he had promised to her whilst they were at the altar at their wedding, exchanging their vows.

So Lady A should be happy, and well, she is. Her husband cares and loves her, and is dutiful in almost every way. Except for one thing.

He sleeps around.

So, what does she do when she finds out??? The world comes crashing down on her. Does she go all out, throw a tantrum and asks for a divorce?? Mr. A is the sole bread-winner of the family. That would mean, no more travelling to Europe, Botox, or weekly spa. But wait, there is such a thing called 'alimony'. Aaaah... But what about the children? Will they be traumatized that 'Divorce' happened to what seemed like a happily-ever-after-mom-and-dad??? Don't their feelings have to be taken into consideration???

(Ah, they're old enough. They'll come about to see through it.)

So that's it. Sign divorce papers, and Mr.A and Lady A bids each other farewell, figuratively and literally. Mr. A finds someone new, and perhaps Lady A too.

But does it have to happen this way???

No, of course not.

The story can turn into a different direction. Options are:

A) As of the above.
B) Throw a tantrum and then learn to live with it.
C) Turn a blind eye and pretended nothing ever happened.

Why B or C??? Because of Love??? Or is it Money??? It can be because of loneliness too. But whatever the reason, this is the road some people have gone through, and it is because the world has radically evolved into a place where choices can seem so extreme, and a life of happily-ever-after will never last. That's REALITY.

That is why....

I'm on the verge of giving up.

I don't believe in Love that lasts forever anymore. The world is too full with impossible issues such as infidelity, for one. We humans have radically evolved and transformed from the many centuries ago to the current present in so many different perspectives, that Love itself is defined in a whole different manner. With Money, Love seems more independent. And the way I see it (through other peoples' tales), Love now speaks of hurt more than anything else. Or maybe it's just the way I see it.

The three words I'll never say.

i. Forever
ii. Forever
iii. Forever

Simply because,

It is Bullshit...

BLACK AND...BLACK...

I'm through with colours!!!!

For now, BLACK is Luscious...

Bouyant..

Alluring...

and Timeless...

BLACK, is the new BEAUTIFUL ...

Taiwan's Susan Boyle???

Seriously???!???!???!??

Like...Seriously?!?!?!

...And suddenly you feel so warm...

Went out for dinner with dear Charan and bro, Jon this week, since my office is just at the front of UTAR (or close), which makes it super convenient to hang out. Ate at Papas. Nasi lemak wuz good!

Oh, for those of you who don't know, Jon's my twin. =) Coz technically, we are born a beautiful wonderful day-the same day. October 18!!! Which makes us both very special X2 people in the world! Hahah..I think I'm the older one by just a few hours la. Wish I wuz the younger one though!!!

It's kinda cool to know someone who shares the same birth date with you. And we both mirror a few distinct personalities, one of it being our immense love for animals. Dogs in particular. He used to have a Husky. Yeap, Husky!!!!!!! Grrrr…And he loves my little ColB!!! Haha. I mean, who wouldn’t la right??? It’s my little adorable baby!!! Hahaha.. Not to mention, ColB’s got this special charisma-thing that lures a person easily into his grasp at first sight. One of his victims being ME. Haha.

…And yea. My little ‘biological’ brother’s name is also John, but that small fart summons me by my name. (Damn, where’s the respect in that right??? If I’m not wrong, the least he should address me is Er Jie!!!!) Haha..tried once to change that only to succumb into nothingness, so screw it.

So when Jon called me Sis yesterday when he picked us up, a sudden gush of warmth overwhelmed through me. Such a happy feeling!!! I know, I know, it’s utterly and superbly silly la, but it’s not everyday you find someone who can be called your twin. It just felt, family. Like instantly it felt like I knew him all my life, though we just met on our 21^st Birthday. And that, wuz really nice. =)

And oh yea, I had a dream yesterday!!!! I think it’s considered a nightmare la.

You know what wuz it I dreamt???

I dreamt that I lost a tooth!

Remember mom saying of a falling tooth or at the sea is like a bad dream with a bad sign…

…But my tooth’s kinda aching since yesterday (*well, I have this rotten tooth waiting to drop off, but I’m trying to keep it with me for as long as possible la. But the ache shadows its inevitability of it being rotten and it will have to extract it eventually.

Sigh, dah lah I just lost my wisdom tooth last two months..! Not another again!!!!)

..Or maybe….

Will there be anything bad happening today????

Indulgence...

~*Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get-

Forrest Gump*~

Allison Iraheta-Scars

Did I say something stupid?
There goes one more mistake...
Do I bore you with my problems?
Is that why you turn away?
Do you know how hard I tried,
To become what you want me to be???

Take me
This is all that I've got
This is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are
We all have our scars
We all have our scars

You say don't act like a child,
But what if it's a father I need?
It's not like you don't know what you got yourself into,
Don't tell me I'm the one who's naive...
Do you know how hard I've tried,
To become what you want me to be?

Take me
This is all that I've got
This is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are
We all have our scars
We all have our scars

Come on, just let it go
These are things you can't control
Your expectations, your explanations
Don't make sense to me
You and your alternatives
Don't send me to your therapists
Deep down, I know what you mean
And I'm not sure that's what I wanna be
No....

Take me
This is all that I've got
This is all that I'm not
All that I'll ever be
I've got flaws, I've got faults
Keep searching for your perfect heart
It doesn't matter who you are
We all have our scars
We all have our scars
Oh no no no

Did I say something stupid
There goes one more mistake...

... this is a pretty sad number, yet I think the lyrics easily relate to many people from all walks of life...

... there are people who gives, and then there are those who takes..
...sometimes, people are just too shallow that they overlook the good-they expect too much, and yet don't see that the other person is doing their level best to please; they're trying so hard to be better, and yet is not appreciated in the way they had hoped it to be ...

..As I recall one person who said this, "I come in one set... you can take it or leave it..."
...I'll remember this statement for the rest of my life...

... mirrors the reflection of many people who think that sometimes, they are just not good enough, they are just not trying hard enough, they are just...............

... and then they gradually give up trying...



... when all they have to be is THEMSELVES...