Interesting Fortnight...!

It's been awhile. 

It was nice, hanging out. I asked him if this was a date, or was it just a simple outing. 

He smiled, blushed a bit. He says "Why don't you decide after tonight?"

Well, it didn't matter to me. 

I was enjoying the company any way. 

I had no expectations, at all. Just a simple dinner, a friend, some awkwardness. 

He was trying. I know.

But I choose to remain oblivious. 

To me, he is a friend, and he will always remain one. Troika is beautiful at night. Did you know???

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It was a full-speed weekend in the past two weeks. I worked with boss and her boss for two days! :) But I managed to prove myself worthy and I got remarks that I have improved tremendously in terms of the skills  I was expected to harness. It was tiring, both days, but it was a learning experience, as always, working directly with senior management peeps. =)

Then there was the Community Day. It was in Inti College. Ahh it was so fun! AstraZeneca is such a happening company. Always doing things to make our lives, and the lives around us, meaningful.

I was in the team that was in charge of 4D Movie Experience. I did the leave-behinds (bookmarks). We did a video based on Titanic, called Dia-tanic, correlating Diabetes as a disease with the movie. Ahhhh it was soooo funny! Who would have known that AZ actually have some very talented actors and actresses, coupled with some helluva creative minds to make it all the more happening and awesome!

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It was a nostalgic feeling walking down the hallways of college. College students to me look like children now. All young and full of hope, oblivious of the fact that the world  is actually a very vicious place. But it was nice. I felt out of place, but it was nice to remember the good old days of checking out good looking guys (never had that much of guts to do that in the past). Now all of them look so kiddo to me. Man, have I aged.

And my thoughts suddenly went to Raymond.

I looked forward to spending time with him every time after college classes. He would wait for me at the library, as he liked the chilling cold. I remember that olive green sling bag that he always forgot to flap back. And the warm, warm teddy hug  I would get every time we met.

I bought him a blue file as a gift, to replace his old one. It was tearing apart. Along with it was a notepad. Sagittarius, a mark of a loyal person. :) He appreciated it. Made me very happy every time I see him with my blue and white file. I miss it all. Every bit of it, him walking me to class, him waiting for me after class, us chilling in his car, us driving up to Genting just to feel the cold air, us walking down the college halls hand in hand, him making me laugh, his very tentalizing eyes (which I fell in love with over and over again), cheerleading, everything.

It was a pity we didn't work out.

He was my TARC sweetheart. 

Grateful to have met him.

Wonder how he is now. :)

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Made some new friends over the weekend. 

Angel brought me to meet her lovelies. 

Spent the Saturday with Amidi. Since he drove me around the last time, this time, since had came to my 'turf', I offered to be his driver. Told him to cut my Mazda some slack lah, since it cannot be compared to his baby. Hahaha. And so we hung out in...Amcorp Mall. He looked like he had a lot of fun..! He bought an analogue camera. Nikon r2 something. Looking at him was like looking at a small boy with a brand new truck or something.

That night we went to Oasis. Had a decent time. Her friends were nice people. Talked about my experience in Jogjakarta, since they were all outdoor fanatics. :)

 

It was nice. There was a lot of laughter. :) The gathering was for a birthday celebration. Simpei's.

MIDI drove my car thereafter. I was tired of driving so he offered to take the wheel. Told him to drive with his life on it. Haha, stress-ness. :) But of course, he is a better driver any day of the week. =)

 

Overall, it was a good week.

 

Enjoyed it!!!! =

 

 

lotsa love.

 

My Handsome, Loyal Rocky

Mdm Wong always says in her pitches, that in life, if one is ever lucky enough, then he or she would have the privilege of being born, growing old, getting sick, and returning to ashes. 

Some are fortunate enough to go through all four, some falters even at the first phase. 

Which is why I I try to remain positive and accepting when I look at Rocky. 

For most who don't know, I have another dog, his name is Rocky. Evidently belonging to sis, he has been with us for 13 years now. Despite little mentioning in this blog (I'm guilty, I mention more about ColB than him), he has been a loyal dog for so long, and for those who know me well enough, whenever I'm out 'walking the dog', it was Rocky that I was always referring to. ColB never walked, simply because he is just too lazy. Fat bum. 

The past few months have been spent being in and out of the veterinary hospital because of a series of incidence on Rocky's condition. Over and over again, there were incidences of maggots attacks, once on his leg, then on the neck, and the latest being his earlobes and the bottom of his jaw. So many scars and bruises. But he stood patient and strong through the arduous process of maggot elimination and the pain, oh gosh I can only imagine, But what I didn't expect, is when the suspected lump on his neck is fatal. 

I should have known better. 

He grew significantly weaker after the two maggot attacks. Then there was the fishy position of his neck. I honestly thought it was the scarred tissue as the outcome of the attacks at his neck. Little did I realise that it was actually a growth, a mass, by the time I realised it, and XRay test further showed complications. 

It was difficult, so difficult for me when Dr Adah told me that if his condition worsens up to the point that he cannot breathe, stand or eat, then the most humane thing to do is to euthanise him. 

Was alone at that time while speaking to her, wish I had company though. It's during times like this that a shoulder to cry on would be nice. I'm fine any other day, but breaking deathly news like this can be very heart-breaking. I gathered myself together and told her I'll speak to her again soon. 

The walk back with Rocky was a sad one. I spoke to him while walking back. I don't know if he understood, but somehow I knew, dogs know when they are nearing the end of their journey. 

This news was broken to me two days after I booked my flight to Australia. 

The day before that, Uncle Kwong also had a terrible news to share on his condition. 

One after another, that is why I told myself that this trip to Australia is going to be focused on one very important thing - Family. To spend time with the kids, my cousins, spend some alone time and gather my thoughts together, which I did. Cherished every moment with little, beautiful Maja. :) and Milosh, and everyone else too. 

Rocky is getting weaker by the day. He lies down while I bathe him, while the lump is getting bigger and bigger. Every night I'll still walk him, like I always do, but the routes are shorter now. 

At times he can't climb up the stairs, and so I'll carry him. 

Somehow, this disease has an upside. As I have always been the one to take care of him, now with his condition, sis is finally spending more quality time with him. I guess that's the one upside of this tragic news. 

In the words of a known author, it's not what happens to you, but how you react to it, that defines you for who you are. 

And it's in those moments you realise that when time is running short, that you would want to spend every waking moment with the ones that you care for and about. 

It's tough. So tough.