Here we are closing at the final quarter of the year.
Well, it's 3 months to Christmas..! :)
Three months more to make dreams come true.
Three months more to make resolutions to reality.
Bahhh..
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It's drizzling now as I write this.
Just had a cup Mamee Express Curry Cup. Yumm. Should I get another one?? *contemplating*
I'm sitting on the sofa, thinking of so many things.
Mainly..
The conversation I had with Dr Yong BK yesterday. I had so many questions, and no one could answer me. I needed to speak with the Dr privately. And so I waited. 3.40pm, he came walking into the room. It was a sad conversation, as he told me Uncle's condition and the recent abdominal PETSCAN results. I hated the direction of the conversation. Again, I was alone. Bad news seem to come around often whenever I'm on my own, I wonder why.
But this was different, because I was somehow mentally prepared for it. With some discussions I had with other Doctor friends, I anticipated this stage, when he adamantly decided to not opt for surgery and lean towards the treatment of traditional Chinese Medicine three months ago. This was the consequence, should the TCM fail. But it's different, even if I'm mentally prepared for it, when I'm attached to that person emotionally.
A dear Uncle who has watched me grown from a baby, toddler, small girl, to a young lady, and soon to celebrate her 26 years of living. Now I'm watching as his life withers away. And there is nothing much we can do about it.
Difficult. So difficult.
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Autumn by Paolo Nautini.
It's a beautiful number.
It keeps playing in my playlist. Thank you to Denesh for introducing to me that song while driving me out for lunch in his car, and thank you Jojo, his babe for having excellent taste in music, simply because we like the same genre.
:)
And so this lyrics goes like this:
Autumn leaves under frozen souls,
Hungry hands turning soft and old.
My hero cried as we stood out there in the cold,
Like these autumn leaves I don't have nothing to hold.
Handsome smile, wearing handsome shoes,
Too young to say though I swear he knew.
I hear him singing while he sits there in his chair,
While these autumn leaves float around everywhere.
I look at you and I see me, making noise so restlessly,
But now it's quiet and I can hear you saying,
My little fish don't cry, my little fish don't cry.
Autumn leaves have faded now
That smile I lost well I've found somehow,
Cause you still live on in my father's eyes.
These autumn leaves, oh these autumn leaves,
Oh these autumn leaves are yours tonight.
This song was written for his grandpa by this very handsome Scottish lad.
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The drive home last night from Pantai Bangsar was a long one, thanks to jam and rain.
In this journey of over an hour, I took the time to listen to Autumn over an over again, and realize that it's more beautiful the more I hear it.
I'm thinking to do a short dance number with this song. Contemporary, maybe??
Think I can do it? I have retired from dancing for so long now. I probably have to break some bones and muscles in the process of getting back on track again. Hahaha.
But it would be fun, if I could accomplish that.
Maybe.
Just maybe.
And to end the evening of my Friday night.. I had someone come pick me up in his new ride.
Mr Alvin Chong, on his sexy Kia K3.
He looked good, in his new car. And I have always known that he has worked hard for his future, so I'm very happy for him that he has achieved this milestone in his career and life. You should really be proud of yourself Alvin! Not many people can buy a nice car like yours at the age of 27! :) All with your own hard work, blood and sweat! :) He had a big-ass smile plastered on his face as I opened my house door and he got out of his car. Well, it's definitely a moment to celebrate. :)
And to top it off, he actually offered to let me drive his car!!!! Like omggg la!!! I was so kan cheong Wei really, and I declined it the first time he offered, but after dinner, he directed me to the drivers seat and was like, "Come drive my car Jean Kathlaine. Can lah, I have faith in you! Hahaha.. Come let me be your salesman for tonight, and you be the driver." Lol.. I was thinking "Man, this car is less than 12 hours old, I'd better drive it like my life depended on it! This guy is either crazy, too happy, or trusts me THAT much to let a clumsy girl like me drive his brand new car in the brink of the night. But hey, since I'm on it, might as well enjoy the moment righttttt???? :D" hahah..!
Wahh so kan cheong really. Kia K3, it's a good car. Accustoms the seat just for the driver and all. Sexy!!!
It was a night full of laughter.
And there I was, sitting with another person who would laugh at my silliness. We talked about my experiences in Europe, and there he was saying "You say one ahh! If I make u mad I buy you waffle, you can't be mad already ahh!" Hahaha. So funny. :) I'm truly, truly glad that we are still friends, that we can look into each other's eyes and find no awkwardness. It's nice. There aren't many people like you out there. Like you often say, I'm a GOOD girl, you are a GOOD boy too, Alvin. Remember that. :) it's one of your best qualities. :)
Sigh, what a week.
Lotsa love.
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