xoxo

Giggles.

Passport. 

And then some laughs. 

Haircut. 

Stolen moments. 

Conversation.

And then I turned to look at you. 

A smirk. At the edge of your lips. 

Some teasing. 

I leaned over to give you a kiss. 

Your little bouncy lips. 

You looked right over. 

We kissed again. 

Smiles. 

In the car. While at the traffic light. 

Simple, contented moments. 

Happy Birthday, my love. 

Yours always. 

lotsa love. 

The Essence of Time

(a note from two weeks ago)

Time.

Time is something we will have to struggle with in the future. 

It's not going to be easy. 

It's going to be frustrating. 

Many, many more frustrations, I'm anticipating. 

Somehow I wonder how you are going to juggle having your family, your work, me, and our future at the same time. 

Perhaps in a few years from now, I'm going to re-visit this particular entry of my blog, and recall of the day you went for your outdoor Venture Club Expedition in Johor, and I went on this one-day outdoor road trip with my dearest family to Perak.  

And I'm going to remember walking back as fast as I could on this faithful night, verging on running already, to settle the important things at home before catching a glimpse of you. 

I didn't think of much, just thought of getting home as fast as I possibly can. 

And I did catch a glimpse of you tonight. 

And it is on this night that I am being reminded again, that it doesn't matter how fast a person has to run, or how long the winding road is, long as that person knows that it is worth it, then it's worth it. 

I'm reminded again that love is not about only needing, it's not only about taking, but it's also about giving, about having the need to understand, the space to tolerate, the acknowledgement of differences, and the wisdom to know what's more important. 

There is so much more to learn, about you for the most part, even about myself, in this process of loving you, as we embark on this path that would lead to our marriage some time soon. Very soon.

I caught a glimpse of you tonight. 

Even if it's just for a two minutes. 

I'm contented. I really wish I had more time, but for tonight, I'm contented. 

And although it's been a tiring day, I've never felt so happy to rush for someone because I know I care about him so very much. 

And if you didn't know, I've been missing you while you were away, Sean. 

Lotsa love. 

Just for you.  

Sean Jean

"Are you always this nice, honey? I feel that I'm not deserving of you."

I exclaimed as he accompanied me to the bathroom at Liang Court. 

For a moment there, he stood, he didn't know how to reply. He didn't expect it, for sure. I smiled as I walked in and he went to the gents. 

I really thought I was a caring girlfriend. Caring enough, until I met him, and became his other half. And then I realised I can never be as meticulous, forward thinking, and particular in details that matter. Not to mention, the extent of care he extends to the people that are connected to me, is unbelievable. Sometimes, I wonder if it's too much. But it comes from a good place. Which brings me back to why I so easily love this man. 

Falling in love over and over again with him has never been this easy.

People say we are still in our honeymoon period, but I say we have passed it. 

It helps that we are never pretentious to each other, always truthful, and we always be our silly selves. He cracks me up too. We make good partners in crime. Hahah.

So much has happened, and I wish I could pen of down so that I'll remember all the details, but it's a lot to remember and pen. Like, A LOT. 

In summary, resigned, sold off the car, transitioning to Singapore, got engaged, planning a wedding, in the near future a honeymoon, and I can't wait! 

I came back to Msia after 1.5 weeks and suddenly realised this place is awfully dirty! And unsafe too. 

But coming back here, I feel like I left a huge chunk of me in Singapore with him.

He took very, very, very good care of my family when they went to Singapore. I couldn't have had it any better. The food was so damn lavish, and coming from a girl who more often than that of the normal, average population, eats good food quite so often (like sea cucumber for lunch, every month or two), I think it's over the top. Like really, over the top. 

But daddy is a happy person. Mummy too. She's already missing me, I know. Among many other things, I know that Sean has shown my parents, the simple reasons why I chose Him to spend the rest of my life with. So quickly, yet so surely. For better or for worse, until the end of time. 

I'm happy, for all the simple reasons that make him, Him. 

Lotsa love.