Somewhere Only We Know

I wrote this particular note not too long ago, but I didn't manage to finish it. Perhaps I was hurting, that the keyboard seemed a bit too hard to press, or perhaps my fingers were numb out of the immense emotional torture that I have to endure. It didn't seem too long ago. But today, I finished the note, and safe it is, kept aside in a little box I fear to open because it would mean a catalyst to an emotional whirlwind which at this point of my life, is really unnecessary. I'm happy now, no burden, no regrets, and I intend to keep it that way. But....

I still say his name in randomness often. 

I wonder will it ever stop. 

Was there an unfinished business? Not that I recall of. We had a proper closure, perhaps the most proper I have experienced. But hovered above me are the burden of emotions that mere words cannot explain. I wish that I could vacuum out my heart so that it would be less scarred. Less tainted. 

I'm listening to Keane now. Somewhere Only We Know, is a beautiful song that I could easily relate to. Perhaps it's easy for someone as boring as I am. Sometimes it amazes me how much of ranting I can do. Ohh the power of words, they will make you or break you. Agreed???. 

It made me think of where I am in my life now. Am I happy and contented?

I don't know if this question is an alarm system in which I set up on my head to constantly evaluate myself, like as if my life needed evaluating.

Went out with Simon that night, and over dinner we had a funny conversation on the 'four men' that a girl would meet in her life. I believe at most parts, he was doing most of the talking, because little did he realise that I was doing a lot of thinking, trying to figure out if what he said had any basis, as I correlate to my own past and the people that have left significant footprints In it. Perhaps it's true. And so I was being asked, what guy is Simon to me. I believe we both knew where we were in the four. :)

Whatever it is, I'm glad for his existence. He is one of the many reasons life seem constantly interesting. Thank you Simon. 

Then there was the random outing with MDT. I sooooooo love his car. It feels so good to ride on a car that is nicer than mine. Hahahah. Think it's a Kia M5? Ahhh the sleekiness and sexiness. It was a nice outing. We should do more of that. :) Next time we ride on my Mazda ya. 

Sigh. 

It's going to be a super stressful month for me this month. I'd either make or break it. Wish me luck..!

 

 

Lotsa love.