Aussie!!

I'm going to Australia this Friday!

Feels a bit sudden, really but love the gush of randomness and excitement!

Yays!~

...Him.. =)

It's funny.

Whenever I was in Sheffield, I often get glimpses, either in my dreams or in reality of that old place I call home. Now that I'm back home, thoughts and photographic memories of my days in Sheffield appear in my mind, sometimes like a broken record when I'm home feeling aimless. Makes me miss the place so much.

And the one thing that formed a huge part of my 'good old' days was...him.

I wrote a note to summarise my stay at Sheffield, and it was meant to be a summary.. but lines flowed after lines, and soon it was paragraphs after paragraphs.. The part which I liked most was this. There and then, I wrote;

In here I found another person whom in a way is very much similar with me but in the other end has a wholesome personality of my total opposite. A person who has been very patient in dealing with my imperfectness and accepts me for the flawed person I am, whether deliberate or unintentional, he has always been there for me through thick and thin, and it is him that I owe the wonderful memories, because he made all the mundane things special, like simply walking down the streets of Sainsbury, the underground bridge to the university, and the casual visits to Aldi Departmental Store. He was the person that would drag me out of my room during a bright sunny day, or during the times when my lazy arse doesn’t want to go anywhere but bumming on the bed, wanting me to appreciate every moment while being here and never lets a single moment go insignificantly.

He’s the one that would share his meals with me unhesitantly, and definitely, the one who taught me how to appreciate even the most simplest things, like appreciating everything around me while taking a walk, appreciating it even when it gets too cold, appreciating tender meat and well cooked fries and a good cup of coffee. He’s the only guy I know that pours four spoonful of Milo into a cup and enjoys the chocolate-y flavour of it. After being with him, there is no such thing as Instant Milo. =D The meticulous person he is infected me in ways I never gave a second thought at, and perhaps I’m not thankful for some stuffs, because his way of savouring differs greatly from mine, but I’m thankful for the differences anyways.

Yeap, he's my silly one.

A darling in so many ways...



lotsa love.

Through my window at night... =)

Don't get me wrong, I love nature. And I especially love it when it rains. But if it rains at night, when its all dark and gloomy, I can't help but hating it a bit because it contributes to the eerie-ness of the night and heck, it can be a bit scary man. Not that I'm a coward alright. And the one thing I don't like is when I look out my parent's room window and I look at the lonely, dim-lit road ahead of me, and it just feels so empty.

There were a lot of incidences at night by windows around my house. I remember once Kevin came by to chat with me before leaving to Scotland, and it was funny because I was looking at him below from that same window while he was looking up to me from outside his car while we were on the phone having a looooong conversation. (he was afraid of the exclamation "Dad has chained the door", so he chose not to come in =)). It was a silly thing to do coz I could just head downstairs and chat with him but I hey, I didn't (winks) and I guess that's why its nice. Well, it's nice to be silly once in awhile. =) It can be uplifting..!

And then it's also through that window where we would usually run up to at the strike of midnight during new year (when I was younger and fireworks were astonishingly beautiful) that we would run towards it to see fireworks lit and flown from Bukit Jalil into the dark sky, filling the night with multiple rainbows of colours and shapes. Yeap, it can be seen... and it's quite nice still. Hehe...free fireworks to watch with no jam or hassle at all, just climb to the highest level, how convenient is that????????? =)

Then I remember that other window in my room too, where I would have very long conversations over nothing at all (over the phone) and feel nice because the other person is just a distance away from my window, and ah, the window down the kitchen during New Year until three in the morning this year. It was a conversation I had that was drawn on a very thin line of chance, when the future of this year (at the time) was pretty ambiguous, and I didn't know which road to take. The promises made in a distance, the seriousness of it all, all that bits and pieces of memories-all that came flowing back just by looking at the rain outside my window.

Gosh, that is just too much of flash-backing over one insignificant thing -my window, isn't it??? See how the mind of a female species works???? =D But it's the past now, and it was just for a fraction of moment. Someone told me that it's okay to relive the past once in awhile as long as I know how to return to the current and look to the future, coz it's the part and parcel of what makes me who I am today. Now I'm living in the present, and I'm happy, and I don't think I'll look beyond my window the same way ever again.

Oh, bout the fruit tart that I mentioned in the previous post, I have a pic of it. Look. =)

Isn't this just cute??? *yummies*

lotsa love.

I don't want to sleep tonight.

Randomness.

It's two thirty in the morning.

And these are the things cropped up in my mind right now.

1. I realised how fast things can change. One moment you're close and the next thing you know, you're not. Perhaps is the way of life?? It's never meant to be bittersweet all the time right?? The same reason why God created the sun and the rain. To provide balance. Where there is light, darkness lurk around the corner. Rain will come after the sun, but the sun comes back up after it rains. So we can always hope, right???

2. Work. I'm wondering which line should I be in my area of work preference. For a newly bredded fish like me, many different boats (companies) out there, comprised of big and small. And I'm wondering on which to choose. Then there is the issue on whether there is a chance for me or not. There is no pressure on me, but I'm pressuring myself out of no reason. Perhaps it's the outcome of being toooooo free??? I don't know man, seriously.

3. I wish I know how to bake more. I mean, the most I know is how to bake banana cake. And that is the easiest thing to bake compared to like, fruit cake or something. Even my banana cake is lower than decent. Sighs...I have a really nice neighbour who took some time and baked for us a some really tasty custard fruit tarts. It was something simple, but heartfelt for sure. =) It tastes nice too. =) I have nice neighbours around here, though generally, it's in the human nature to be nosy at times. Maybe because they are toooooo free as well??? Or maybe it's back to the "it's in the nature" department. I don't know again.

But I like this place. I like the neighbourhood, and love the aura that surrounds us altogether. I'd love to spend my future somewhere here, send my kids to the place where I used to study... make them as active as I was. I'm even keeping my gymnastic apparatuses for the somewhat distant future. And well, my thoughts are drifting way too far now. But it's impossible for now, since dad just broke the news to me that getting a house, or even a condo apartment in PJ would cost no less than RM 300K. Now that's one dream that's gotta go into the 'pending list' for a period. Ugh, disappointment.

4. I had a bad dream last night. The worst of all dreams. A nightmare. The feeling that I am most afraid of, of loosing someone, and it's been haunting me all day. And I don't wanna mention it to the family because it would stir up weird emotions, though mom told me that if ever we had any bad dream, its custom to bite any wood we see at first sight the moment we get up from bed, and sort of tell it out so that it won't happen. A superstitious way of the natives back in the Phils. I wonder if it works. Coz if it does I'll bite wood all day, even until I bleed.

5. My thoughts are drifting far...to a faraway, somewhat familiar place. And I do not like it.

Sugarsweet...

The most perfect things in life could be made out of the most simplest things.

And the simplest makes the sugar-sweetest...

Some magic lasts a moment. Others lasts a lifetime.

I found magic the moment I fell in love with you...


lotsa love.

Love Rock-Awesomeness!!!! =)

I remember the first time we ever saw him as a contestant coming for try outs on Idol. His first interview in front of Simon, Randy, Paula and Kara that very first time. He stood out so easily. With that rock figure and down-to-earth character, two contradicting behaviours that just seem to go so well on him. He said he has so much to give, so much to show. We watched him grow. Mom mentioned in the finals that if he EVER comes down to Malaysia she is so going.. So there we went!!! =) Kris Allen was no match to him, really. Who cares if he didn't win??? Now he's building fame worldwide like a hurricane!!!

Adam Lambert! AaaaaaaaahhhhhH!!!

I know this may sound too predictable but I just gotta post up on him and his concert.

Coz it was super duper awesome!!!

We got a seat that was juuuuust in the middle of everything, so everything was clear to view, though he was a bit small. I kinda knew he would add his laser effects on since he used it on Idol when he reappeared the next year with all the glam and success. So we got the seat that got the best view of all the laser effects..!! And whoosh..nice!!! And Gawsh, was the music loud! True rock concert it was!!! It was deafening!!! I swear I was half-deaf for like 10 minutes after the concert. But it's worth alright!


Adam is a true rock artiste to the core! In the intro he came out with his feathered hat (the same one he wore for his MV "If I Had You") and rocked the crowd to bits! Everyone was screaming their lungs out! Me included. Aaaaah!!!! =) Mom too!!! =) He sang four songs back-to-back, then went to about 3 slow numbers and finally back on the fast track! Never once, not once at all did he ran out of tune. And he hit all the high pitches and so much more!!!

Gawwwwsh.... and I love his freedom of expression man. He believes to be true to himself no matter what contradiction the world thinks of him, and that's cool! And OMG, who cares if he's gay, he's just soooo hawt!!!!!

Well enuf of the babbling. Time for some pics!

And oh yea, bumped into this old friend of mine, a former ballet classmate after the concert too! DAMN love her for being an Adam Lambert fan too!!! =)

*****ADAM LAMBERT ROCKS!!!*****

peace out.



lotsa love.

Home Sweet Home... =)

Seems like forever since the last time I penned an entry here. Well, many things have happened since, left the simple city of Sheffield with a heavy heart, visited many countries, saw many different things, experienced new cultures altogether and grew up (mentally) from where I was to where I am now. I took a stroll up North to the land of the Scots and visited Europe, and although it was more or less a ‘touch and go” experience, whereby I wasn’t able to truly experience the essence of the beauty of each country that I have visited, I saw the best of each (in my definition). I saw the beauty of nature and its wonders, ate some nice food, and I bet if only I stayed a bit longer I'll be able to met some nice people. Europeans are passionate in what they do, especially if they love it. I realized that my home country is nothing but a small island as compared to the rest of the world, and compared with what other countries had in which my home country lacked. Food is the best at Malaysia, although friar grass was a new delicacy to the naked eye and the dripping mouth. Europeans had a different approach, more laid-back way of savouring life, while we Asians do it differently. The monuments boast high up in the sky, and statues and sculptures built hundreds and hundreds of years ago, along with it the magnificent history still stands up to today for us to marvel.With Greek, Roman, Egyptian history, I've seen it all, and it was marvelous. =)

It would take time, to story and pen down what happened to me the past month. Perhaps il'l take the time to record it all before the meticulous details erases from my memory through time. But the journey of exploring one part of the world, traveling for the past month has definitely been an eye opener. But before I go into those details, I’d like to rejoice the moment that I have returned home.

Seriously, there is just no place like home. They say that traveling with friends is not the same as traveling with family, and after trying both, I’d still prefer the latter. Maybe it’s because the bond shared between my bro and sis and I are so close that I don’t find the laughter and chemistry in another company, although I do find some solace in my dearest. We went to eat on Sunday, all the way to Semenyih. Well, it’s about 40 minutes drive past Mines Wonderland and stuff. It was a Chinese restaurant and we ordered what I thought was a sumptuous meal. Dad rejoiced in happiness because I’m home and am the first in the family who holds a degree with me. I’m glad I made him proud that way. =)

Uncle Cheng and Uncle Kwong came to join us too, along with Mr. Goh and his wife. Together, all 10 of us, we dipped our spoons and forks/chopsticks into 11 dishes! Yeap, 11 damn-fulfilling dishes! Check out the pics…

Dad brought 5 bottles of liquor altogether, yummy yummyumm! What could go better with seafood if it weren’t white wine, and red wine on meat??? So we drank and chattered all the way. Boys will be boys, so brother grabbed and drank one bottle of the white wine all to himself. Then he was pretty tipsy and slept like a piggy in the car. All the acts of trying to be a young man and then he sleeps like a baby thereafter. How silly. But cute. =) Stiill the same old, spoilt baby brother of mine at 17. =) Of course, all the attention was quite on me because it was to celebrate my return and an advanced Birthday celebration. Yeap yeap yeap! Madame’s birthday is coming soon! *wink wink*

It’s good to see the familiar faces of family again after awhile. Felt a sense of completeness and security to have found my way home to this cozy feeling. Guess some part of me never grows up huh???

The road ahead would be different now, now that I am at the end of my studying life. Now I’m geared on to my working life!!! Damn, I think I had too much fun already for the past month that I sooo gotta find work soon!!!

Lotsa love.