The Essence of Time

(a note from two weeks ago)

Time.

Time is something we will have to struggle with in the future. 

It's not going to be easy. 

It's going to be frustrating. 

Many, many more frustrations, I'm anticipating. 

Somehow I wonder how you are going to juggle having your family, your work, me, and our future at the same time. 

Perhaps in a few years from now, I'm going to re-visit this particular entry of my blog, and recall of the day you went for your outdoor Venture Club Expedition in Johor, and I went on this one-day outdoor road trip with my dearest family to Perak.  

And I'm going to remember walking back as fast as I could on this faithful night, verging on running already, to settle the important things at home before catching a glimpse of you. 

I didn't think of much, just thought of getting home as fast as I possibly can. 

And I did catch a glimpse of you tonight. 

And it is on this night that I am being reminded again, that it doesn't matter how fast a person has to run, or how long the winding road is, long as that person knows that it is worth it, then it's worth it. 

I'm reminded again that love is not about only needing, it's not only about taking, but it's also about giving, about having the need to understand, the space to tolerate, the acknowledgement of differences, and the wisdom to know what's more important. 

There is so much more to learn, about you for the most part, even about myself, in this process of loving you, as we embark on this path that would lead to our marriage some time soon. Very soon.

I caught a glimpse of you tonight. 

Even if it's just for a two minutes. 

I'm contented. I really wish I had more time, but for tonight, I'm contented. 

And although it's been a tiring day, I've never felt so happy to rush for someone because I know I care about him so very much. 

And if you didn't know, I've been missing you while you were away, Sean. 

Lotsa love. 

Just for you.