Dream A Little Dream Of Me

Four seasons; summer, spring, autumn, winter.

I have experienced the warmth of summer, the tenderness of spring, and the cold of winter, but well, as of today, yet to experience the beauty of autumn.

I have never spoken of this thought, because I know that such thought is difficult to attain now, not at this point of my life, but if time permits, and opportunity too, then I would love to walk down Central Park NY one day in the midst of autumn and witness the withering leaves in mellows of golden yellow. It would be such a melancholic atmosphere, but with the right company, and the right reasons, it would be so beautiful. 

 

 

One of those dreams. But I am thankful, and so grateful for everything that has happened to me this year.

Sure, I have failed in several things, attained success in many other things. 

I have traveled to 5 places this year. Traveled to Bangkok and Hua Hin, Thailand; Yogyakarta, Indonesia; Perth, Australia; Singapore, four times, and well, for company trip, Langkawi. 

 

 

(Langkawi)

 

 (Too many good looking men, damn I'm lucky! haha)

 (My teammates, life is so colourful simply because of THEM)

(Party until midnight! Can you spot me??? Then we adjourned to the beach and continued with the booze. Good times, really)

 

(Jogjakarta)

 

 (Prambanan Temple)

 (Such a cute photo leh)

 (My top closest good friends, dear Simon and I *cheese!!*)

 (bumpy bumpy ride!)

In a pretty beach with a beautiful sunset, I left my footprints in the sand and took a photo of it before the waves washed it away. Life is like that, isn't it? You create your own moments. Every day.

 

(Australia)

 

 (BB Maja and Milosh)

 (My most favourite cousin in the world, Anita)

(A snapshot right before Maja decides to slap me on the face. Awww..) 

 

(Thailand)

 

 (There's Uncle Kwong on our last trip together)

 (Who is cuter, the bee or ME? =P)

 (The simple pleasures in life, having able to charter a private van for the family while going on a trip so that we will be comfortable with the people we love)

 (Random)

 (This room with a beautiful view)

 (Sunset)

(My dearest sis and I. Perhaps we would be busier as the years go by but she will always, always be the person I'd confide to and look up upon)

 

(Singapore)

 (My real good friend, the one that cracks me up every single time until I can cry that kind, Gary)

(My girlfriends, Eliz and Hui Boon)

 

 

In each of those places there were fond memories that was created with some of the most wonderful people I know. I have learnt to see the world in a different spectrum, and reminded myself that the beauty of life itself was never really placed in the form of materialism. Sure, it is a given, that should you have more, you would be happy, and having the extra money can really buy you wonders, but I have also conversed with friends who has the luxury to travel the world much more than I do, but seek no contentment in it, amidst the loneliness of traveling alone and/or without the right company. Of course, traveling for leisure and business trips means two totally different things, and one would most certainly prefer the former than that of the latter. Nonetheless, traveling opens your eyes to the endless possibilities that the world may bring, and opportunities too, that may come along the way.

So what am I really proud of this year?

First up, I made a good investment. And despite it generating just a decent income, I am still grateful nonetheless.

Secondly, I have had to experience death first hand, the death of my dog and then Uncle, which had made me realize that the things in life, no matter how big it was at any one point of time, is so small and insignificant in comparison to death. I witnessed the bond of my family during this trying times, a lot of tears and sighs, and the type of people that my family are, and how I'm proud to be born and bred in this family of five. 

I saw the bond of love intwined in the love Ken and sis have for each other in formal matrimony. I cannot wait for their wedding in March, it's going to be so beautiful. I bought my tickets already! So much traveling to happen next year. 

 

I closed the year at 100% YTD last year. I'm really proud. It was hard work. Success is sweet.

 

But the highlight of it all, for me, was when I found him. Him. The person I know, I would spend the rest of my life with. 

It's a beautiful, out of this world feeling. That sense of belonging. At one point of my life, I was so comfortable being single, amidst the company of friends and besties that I had forgotten how it felt like to love, care and be loved in return. I wasn't missing out of course, life has been a bliss, getting to know more and more new people each day, hanging out with different company and hearing ample stories from different perspectives, but to find your The One, is truly an elevated feeling, that feeling of completeness, when you find your sense of direction and source of happiness. 

 

 

(Hahah)

  

It's been a bliss. 

I can go on and on, about how he makes me feel and how everything seems so perfect with him in my life. How he makes me laugh, how the simple things he do makes me so happy, and how lucky he is to have me too hahahah. (hey, I'm a catch alright! Lol)

No, he is not perfect. Neither am I. But the beauty of what we have, is that we choose to love each other for our imperfect selves in the most perfect way that we know. And that in itself, is something I know is worthy of doing. 

As I learn more and more about him every day, I realize that falling in love with him over and over again is such an easy, effortless things to do. And just recently, I found out that he is actually sillier than I am. If only he wasn't so far away, I'd grab him close and give him a tight squeeze for being oh-so adorable.

Sigh. *contentment*

My favorite song for now, Taylor Swift - You Are In Love
 

Such a simple song, but reminds me so much of him and the bits and pieces of memories we created in our little world so far. 

There were many other little things too that has happened this year, mistakes done that I wish I didn't do, words said that I wish I didn't say, things I wished  I had given a deeper thought before delving deeper, other things that I thought I could have done better, good friends who left with no rhyme nor reason, and it all. 

 

But well, it's all a part and parcel of life. It's all a process. A learning process.

Then there this bond that I strengthened with my dear best friend, Syamala that I will always, always count my blessings for. Love her to bits. 

 

I hope 2015 would be a good year for everyone that I love. 

For me, it would be a year of change. So much changes. At the corner of my heart, it's beating with so much of excitement, but at the same time, with a tinge of fright thinking about the uncertainties of the unknown.

I know it would be a tough one for me. But it's okay, I'm a survivor! :) If anything, at the end of 2015, I know I will prevail a wiser, tougher Me. Maybe with mental and emotional bruises along the way but hey, that's how we all grow, isn't it so? Besides, life is too boring if we don't live by the edges once in awhile.

Adios 2014, You have been wonderful, and HELLO 2015!!!

 

(T'was good while it lasted, now I'm taking the best of it and am moving forward!!!)

 

 

Lotsa love.