Thing's that I Gotta Face Soon..

So here I am breezing the air of Australia. Perth, to be exact.

Been here for a few days now, and honestly, and since it's been only a few days, I'm enjoying my rather laid back life. The honestly not-a-damn-thing-to-do is really giving me a lot of spare time to think, and while I'm at it, I'm pondering about my life now. And suddenly it feels like "lost in wonderland".

This year has been the most remarkable year. It truly was. But now that I'm at the verge of the end, I'm wondering about "what's next" in my life's list. I'm wondering, is that it? Yea I know that life doesn't halt here, but I'm thinking, is life going to be so rigid, just like every fresh graduate now, we're going to look for that "dream"job, start a career and hope to be successful one day? Why do we all follow the same path? Is life of this era composed to be of such path, or do we just conform to society? Yes, some of us have to find jobs to secure a steady financial income for various reasons, but really, is that what life after graduation is?? Isn't there just more to life??? What happened to just being implusive rather than a conformist?? Isn't it time now to realise some things in that to-do-list of yours that has been put off over and over again over more "important issues"? Well, as for me, I've always wanted to sky dive. Haha. But that... I gotta pend some more because I can't afford a private jet yet. But what about all the stuffs that can be done?? Once we jumpstart our working life, ther would be no turning back, and other freetimes would be proven too cumbersome or tiresome to realise those dreams. There's just so much to do in so little time. Plus with family commitments and what not.

And then there is another issue of knowing what to do, but not knowing it at the same time. It's like knowing the necessary things that has to be done but then not knowing how to go about doing that. Like me now. I'm back to square one! It feels like I'd never grown up, just playing my past like a broken record. After Form 5 I had this nauseatic feeling of being lost, not knowing the person I want to become, then in Dip (Law vs IB), and now here I am again. Ugh.. I can't seem to find a job that fits me. Maybe I should just realise my life long dancing dream (haha, that's a joke), or oh yea, maybe I should go against adversity and be a ballet teacher or gymnastics coach. I'm qualified for that. =) And I have a soft spot for kids. =) Haha.

Ah well, decisions decisions decisions. Much to worry about when I get home. But I believe all will turn out well somehow. =) Till then, I'm gonna stop my whining and enjoy Aussie! Holidays have yet to start here for me! There's a whole lot of stuffs to savour! So might as well just enjoy it! *winks*

lotsa love.