You Won't Forget

I baked again today. And it felt like deja vu.. And it was, except that it felt like such a long time ago since I baked, when the fact is, the last time was just several months ago, back at Sheffield. Perhaps I have been through and seen so much that it took toll on time for me, like I was aging mentally, much faster that I thought I was. Well, figuratively. I felt old for a moment. I was searching on the Internet for an estimation of the measurements, and suddenly it felt like Iwas at my D321A window, with the church not far away, on a nice breezy evening, searching on the Internet for something similar. Everything felt so real, but it wasn't.

And suddenly I had this strange longing.

I long to feel the breeze while I walk down Moor Street. I long to feel the air at the back of my neck, sending me chills down my spine. There's a lot to miss, surely. And I miss it even more now that I know that it will only be a memory from now on. I know that I will go back to Shef one day. But nothing would be the same again. Some things would change. The way I see it would change. I would change, for sure.

There were many things I learned being abroad. And I'm glad that one of it was baking. =)

I love to bake. I remember going to the library back at F4 and looking at cookbooks when I'm supposed to search for Biology additional referencing books. I love mixing the ingredients together, and looking through the oven as the mixture fluffs up, where the colour changes to golden brown. That's perhaps the particular reason why I love to eat bread. Because I love to see the golden brownish colours, and I just adore the before-and-after look.. And the scent..ahh heaven. =) But perhaps I was never the best when it came to baking. =)

I was watching Lake House. A love so profound felt by two different people from different timelines. How is that even possible? Well, we'll never know right? Really, with the possilibities of UFOs, any darn thing is possible out there. But this movie kept me at the edge of my seat, kept me wondering how would the story end, and I'm glad it was a happy one. And then in the evening I sat down and watched Sex and the City, Season 4 and gosh, what an emotional roller coaster ride it was! I tell you I can just sit on the couch and go emo the whole day just by following the movie la. And go gaga just by looking at Carrie (SJP) and the uh-most-fashionable wardrobe..! And Aidan..now there's my dream guy... *drools*

And just before I penned this whole entry, I looked at my cake. The difference was profound, I realised it looked better, and tasted better each time I baked it. There was a smile on my face. The, I cut out a piece and placed it nicely on a plate. Looked at it really carefully. All those times it didn't turn out well, and that didn't matter. I suddenly understood why people never give up trying once they found something they love doing. Because even having failed is not so bad an experience if u enjoyed the process, while trying to figure out what went wrong. I smiled to my silly self again, and I thought, "Perhaps not all of Sheffield would be lost. Perhaps I will always have a piece of it every time I bake this cake." So yeaps.. All in all, it was an enlightening day today.

And oh yah, I went to the beach yesterday and swam at the edge of the Indian sea. Saw many good looking beach boys and their hot bod. And not that I have confidence issues, but seeing some of the babes walking by the beach makes me just wanna bury myself into the sand and stay in there. Haha. The guys here differ greatly from Asian man, because they take a whole lot of care in the looks of their body..I mean, all the guys were astonishingly well built! It was a nice sight. Haha.

After a few bumps on the arse and water seeping into the earlubes, I decided to give it a rest. Damn, the Indian waves are definitely too wild for me! Everytime the wave hit, I was blown off and landed in the weirdest of positions. And I went back for more coz it's fun to swim with the waves, until it sucked up every ounce of energy I had left. Came home feeling so fresh I couldn't sleep last night. Went for a bit of a shopping spree too. =)

Well, that's it for the crapping...It's a Sat!!! Weekend! Go out and have some fun!!!

lotsa love.